Tuesday, August 7, 2012

The doldrums.

I seem to have hit dead water in my running world. I'm still trying, I'm getting up and getting in my minimal mile a day, sometimes more, but nothing like I want to be or should be doing. The wind has gone out of my sails.

I know a lot of this is to do with my headspace. It's been a difficult month for me, because of myself. I do my best to be a good person for the people in my life, for the people I meet, for the people I care about, but the more I concentrate on people around me, the more I neglect myself or the people that I'm closest to and the things I care about the most. It's not a good thing.

So my running has suffered as I think about the person I am and the person I want to be. I know this is a bit deep for my blog, but I think the breeze is picking up. I need to keep learning about what makes me the person I am, and try to get rid of the things that make me feel bad, guilty, and unworthy of the things that are important.

Maybe the breeze is gone, maybe there is no wind in my sails, but dammit, I have strong arms, and I know how to paddle.

Time to lace back up and get strong again.